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If you could meet your true inner self, what would s/he look like, and what would s/he tell you?

i would see an overweight shadow person. i am a size three, but i still see a fat person when i look at myself and i dont think that will ever change. i see a shadow person because i hide behind an identity that im not sure i want.
What name would you give to your car or bicycle, and why?

i would definetly name my bike susan. why? because it was the first name that popped into my head when i thought about it.

my car?

no name...its not that important.
She has no special talent
No special beauty mark
No invention with a patent
No voice of a comely lark

No hourglass physique
No sunbeam likened smile
No lingering mystique
No manicured nails to file

But what she had she flaunted
With the style of a fur- lined stole
With the chic of a runway model
She flashed her beautiful soul

love...a decision?

okay, here it comes. people always think i am crazy when it comes to my ideas about love. i dont believe in the whole fairytale love at first site meant to be together stuff. i used to. but now i think love is more of a choice you make. think about it, if you are forced to spend time with someone you dont like, you can choose to start liking them and getting along with them. the same sort of thing goes for love. if you see someone that shows the potential of someone you could fall for, someone that you can see yourself being with, you can choose to go for the person and love the heck out of them. there is no soulmate, because chances are you will love more than one person. probably in different ways and on different levels, but you will still love them. think of your current relationship. do you love them? i sure love my boyfriend and we have been together for quite some time. but i could just as easily choose not to. i dont want to nor do i think i ever will. i chose to love him and i choose that reguardless. but i could get over him and stop loving him too. and i could also fall in love with someone else if i wanted to. it wouldnt be the same and i would miss him terribly, but it is not impossible. dont think im trying to make it sound like i dont want to be with my boyfriend, i am just using him as an example of my point. think about it....i mean really think about it. is it a choice?

i think yes.

a harlet

so i just finished watching easy A for the second time. typical high school movie. you know what really bugs me about movies these days? they are all about sex or sex appeal. short shorts and low cut shirts. i mean really? maybe im just old fashoned, but ladies...do you really want your men looking at that crap?

im done ranting lol. its been a long day. holidays from home never seem to get easier. sometimes i actually miss my parents and i want to go to sleep and wake up in my old bed..but its never as wonderful as you think it was. its never actually what happened because what you remember becomes what happened (green) and, we tend to sugarcoat certain parts of life to remember them for their beauty and happiness other than what they actually were. sometimes i want to go back, but then i remember that i left for reasons. and as my favorite author john green says, leaving is hard, but once you leave its the easiest damn thing in the whole world. it was hard, then easy.

speaking of easy, i keep getting off track. do you think its right to fake a bad reputation?
do you think it's okay to actually sleep around in high school?
do you think it should be made a public thing if you do?

i mean, is any of it really that big of a deal?

as for me, i think thats a personal thing. maybe im cheesy and old fashoned but i think sex is something for love, and not just puppy lust/loveeeee. but legitimate mature, open conversive, understanding, unconditional love. and not to be broadcasted. but i want to know what you guys think.

Writer's Block: It's cold outside

I live in Minnesota, so it's funny to hear people in places like California complaining about the cold. What temperature is too cold for you?

I spent the first six years of my live in Minnesota and the rest in Wisconsin until i came to iowa so i am used to cold temperatures. But it does get inconvenient sometimes.

Writer's Block: You've got the look

How important is physical attraction in selecting a romantic partner?

when you first meet someone, the first thing that draws you to them is their physical appearance. as you get to know them, you learn more about them and that will determine the rest. so physical attraction is very important to get the relationship started.

If You Forget Me by Pablo Neruda

I want you to know
one thing.

You know how this is:
if I look
at the crystal moon, at the red brance
of the slow autumn at my window,
if I touch
near the fire
the impalpable ash
or the wrinkled body of the log,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists,
aromas, light, metals,
were little boats
that sail
toward those isles of yours that wait for me.

Well, now,
if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little

If suddenly
you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.

If you think it long and mad,
the wind of banners
that passes through my life,
and you decide
to leave me at the shore
of the heart where I have roots,
that on that day,
at that hour,
I shall lift my arms
and my roots will set off
to seek another land.

if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine.

Writer's Block: The long and winding road

Are there any difficult events in your past that made you a stronger person today? If you could go back and erase them, would you?

ofcourse there are plenty. life has a way of hitting you in the face when you least expect it. and no, i would not change a thing because that's what made me who i am today and thats whats still changing me into a better person because im still learning from my mistakes.

Writer's Block: Toys in the attic

Did you have a favorite toy as a child that you took with you everywhere? If so, what was it and what happened to it?

i had a pink teddy bear named Kate and i still have her actually :)